Yesterday, I got my second tattoo. Only having it one day, a lot of people are asking me what the significance of it is, what does it mean to me? My mom is convinced a form of rebelling, that it's something witty to put on my body. NO, that would be wrong.
I didn't and still don't have the worlds greatest dad, which has been a constant struggle on me since I was born. I had to grow up a lot faster then most kids did. I had a job at fourteen and still have yet to go without one since the day I got that first job. I knew then if I wanted something, I needed to work for it. My child hood wasn't an easy one by any means, it was hard to get by and my grandparents helped out SO much with everything. Going through 3 divorces between the ages of 6 and 11 is not the typical child hood. I remember wishing MY dad would just come back, so I didn't have to put up with these Bozos and all their million kids.
Now that I am 18 years old and am well aware of the person my dad is, I'm glad he never came back. No, I do not hate him. He doesn't do anything good for me nor my mom, so it is good he got lost when he did and let just HER raise me. Making it work with him is nearly impossible and my patience is thin and wearing fast.
My life, my message. No matter WHAT happens in my life, I will learn from it, I will voice my opinion and not be afraid to show people who I am. You have choices in life, you can learn for what God has given you, or sulk and be upset. My whole childhood I refused to be upset with anyone for not having a Dad. I was a strong little girl, I just knew in the end everything was going to be okay. It got to me at times, but for the most part, I kept that attitude. No matter what happens, who I loose, who I gain, I always want to have a positive outlook on what is placed in front of me. I refuse to bring a bad "message" to the table.
The tattoo hits me hard as an individual, and it has many different meanings to me. People may think its stupid or immature, I don't care, it means something to me, it represents something in MY life, I have OVERCOME something huge, something that I have struggled with my entire life, and I put it somewhere I will see it everyday and remember the strength I had and will still need for my future, I'm sure it will have its ups and downs as well.
I love it, and that's all that really maters to me.
I didn't and still don't have the worlds greatest dad, which has been a constant struggle on me since I was born. I had to grow up a lot faster then most kids did. I had a job at fourteen and still have yet to go without one since the day I got that first job. I knew then if I wanted something, I needed to work for it. My child hood wasn't an easy one by any means, it was hard to get by and my grandparents helped out SO much with everything. Going through 3 divorces between the ages of 6 and 11 is not the typical child hood. I remember wishing MY dad would just come back, so I didn't have to put up with these Bozos and all their million kids.
Now that I am 18 years old and am well aware of the person my dad is, I'm glad he never came back. No, I do not hate him. He doesn't do anything good for me nor my mom, so it is good he got lost when he did and let just HER raise me. Making it work with him is nearly impossible and my patience is thin and wearing fast.
My life, my message. No matter WHAT happens in my life, I will learn from it, I will voice my opinion and not be afraid to show people who I am. You have choices in life, you can learn for what God has given you, or sulk and be upset. My whole childhood I refused to be upset with anyone for not having a Dad. I was a strong little girl, I just knew in the end everything was going to be okay. It got to me at times, but for the most part, I kept that attitude. No matter what happens, who I loose, who I gain, I always want to have a positive outlook on what is placed in front of me. I refuse to bring a bad "message" to the table.
The tattoo hits me hard as an individual, and it has many different meanings to me. People may think its stupid or immature, I don't care, it means something to me, it represents something in MY life, I have OVERCOME something huge, something that I have struggled with my entire life, and I put it somewhere I will see it everyday and remember the strength I had and will still need for my future, I'm sure it will have its ups and downs as well.
I love it, and that's all that really maters to me.
"God places the heaviest burdens on only those who can carry the weight"
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